2012 so far ...

It's already 2012 and a few months have passed.

I've already been happily confirmed at Teekay and loving every moment of it ... even when I'm deep in my work sorting through the documents.

Been through my usual dramas, up and downs, hopes and disappointments.

Frankly, been feeling more alone than usual. Especially with seeing my friends married, getting married, in relationships, or even just simply dating.

I wish I could say that I've been trying, but to be disappointed time and again, I just keep going back to square one.

I sometimes just feel I don't want to try anymore and just hole myself up at home to sleep away my time.

Luckily I have my friends to call me out, to make me feel not so lonely. They are still there for me.

But ... once at home ... alone in my bed ... it's so cold.

... back rash.

My back is itchy!!!

Started with only one big bump then it turned into 2, 3 and before I know it several unsightly red bumps on my back ... and ITCHY at that!!!

Please ... this is not the first time.

Please don't tell me I'm allergic to something I ate.

I had salmon, unagi and ebi roe maki just now. Plus a tuna subway sandwich top with capsicums and honey mustard.

Which one?!?!?!?

Should I consider seeing a doctor???

Hypothesis Proven

Did a little test for the past week.
My little hypothesis about guys is really quite true.

Guys only look for me when they need something.
If they can't get it, or if they do not need anything from me, I'm useless to them and thus am ignored.

But the ones who are by my side with or without favours; little mahjong sessions, a little alcohol in our systems, a good laugh over good food ... are my girls.

Thank you girls ... you're the only ones who I can count on.

Sleep

Not going where I was hoping for.

In fact I feel like I'm falling backwards again.

No motivation. Nothing to look forward to.

Just feel like sleeping my days away ... what's different from being dead? None.

Another great night (and half a day)

Another fun night at Mambo last night. My legs almost couldn't walk me out to the cab queue.

Left bike at Zouk.

Had a nice cool glass of Erdinger, two glasses of Japanese Slipper, inside I've no idea how much Heineken.

Went to bed ... and woke up this morning with a big smile ... it was a good day.

One of the best Mambo nights

Maybe it was the wine and beer mixed drinking.
Or maybe because I told myself I must enjoy myself tonight.

All in all, I had fun.

I've not danced on the centre platform for such a long time.
It was also a good feeling to see the familiar faces of friends who returned smiles and some hugs too.

It was also fun to see the dancefloor folk smile happily and following the Mambo moves along with us.

No pushing and shoving. No drunkard ang mohs. No breakouts of fights. No ah-guas pouring their drinks on my leg and me wanting to beat him/her to a pulp.

It was a good night ... and the pounding headache I'm feeling now I guess is a testament of it.

;)

$74 for NOTHING

I ordered coloured lenses about a month ago from a spree.
I super regret it now.

WHY THE FUCK MUST SG CUSTOMS FIND FAKE CONTACT LENS NOW!?
Why can't they discover it AFTER I get my lenses?!!??!

Worst of all I won't get a refund!!!
As in the stupid T&C, in the case where the items are confiscated by SG Customs, they are NOT RESPONSIBLE!!! I'm never ordering these online ever again!

Why the fucking China make so many fake things! Why not just ban China altogether ... then we'll see how many business just go bust.

Fuck ... fuck ... fuck x gazillion.